[WXBH-Discuss] Message from the Universe

Sun Jul 16 01:19:12 EDT 2006

For the record, I have never been associated with vandalizing anyone's car 
in my life (nor has Hallie). I have no knowledge of anyone doing so to 
yours. I suspect you may have more enemies that you like to think. Greg 
Martin has been in Campbellsville at a summer camp working with kids. Before 
you make accusations and slander people, consider that you are speculating 
100%.  We have better things to do with our time (like taking school trips 
to Europe to earn a Master's Degree) than spend it thinking about you (as 
you like to believe).

You are the one that has to live with the fact that, well meaning or not, 
you bring chaos into every situation you enter. You constantly set things 
ablaze to make your self a victim of other people's anger at your irrational 
behavior then demonize them. You always have convenient excuses and tell 
yourself that these wild coincidences between your actions and other’s anger 
are some amazing work of the cosmic universe. Your fabricated drama is 
everyone else's cross to bear.

The proof is in the pudding.

And I move on, yet again leaving an organization I am passionate about to 
get away from you....

So it goes.

>From: radical eclectic <radioelectric at yahoo.com>
>Reply-To: WXBH Radio Discussion List <wxbh-discuss at wxbh.org>
>To: WXBH Radio Discussion List <wxbh-discuss at wxbh.org>
>Subject: [WXBH-Discuss] not necessarily worth everyones reading 
>time...kristin isnt nuts
>Date: Sat, 15 Jul 2006 12:32:29 -0700 (PDT)
>
>first off i see nothing wrong with what loyd said... more to the point:
>
>   aron... scrap the public attitude and realize that you do take things 
>wrong from time to time just like i do... seriously i dont have the luxury 
>of throwing in any towels or curbing my network scheduling of collective 
>reconnections in this community simply because i answer to these people out 
>of lasting commitment to change in all our lives as i have been for 20+ 
>years... you as an activist know that my life is in it and that my learning 
>to become better as a person is to make some mistakes and learn to forgive 
>others as they make theirs... yes its hard when the same shit comes up 
>again and again but we all have to see how we play back into it even by 
>well meaning effort
>
>   road to helll paved with good intentions etc. .... normally i would stop 
>here with the public address and send a separate email to just you and 
>continue the revisions of your notes as dialogue but i dont trust that you 
>will see the value in reasoning so i will allow others to be a judge for 
>themselves and do my best to leave out names and dirty laundry such has not 
>been the case in the past on anyones part from time to time
>
>   foremost in the LAVA... i will tell you that the shit i painted on 
>Glenns building as many have done without permission  and the eyeball 
>specifically was not considered yours or directed at you if you must know 
>because i got my own wood to help you stabilze that ladder at your request 
>collaboratively for what i considered to be common safety on lava 
>property... nothing on the ladder said 'aron's do not touch' seeing as its 
>a junky piece of wood and you and i know that to be petty shit...
>
>   and then the floor painting issue goes on all the time for years... i 
>responded specifically to words already painted on floor 'felled, 
>destroyed' along with your signage of 'hate well' on the wall in front of 
>the tool crib commons where we all head when going for tools and music 
>selection i sought to balance the energy by writing 'be well' which is a 
>common closure statement in my emails as a general 'happy as we go on our 
>own ways' sort of moniker instead of say a peace sign or harmony which i 
>painted elsewhere because someone other than me likes to torment and 
>terrorize anonymously in the place where i create... if you see that as 
>fucked up psycho shit then i would say you try too hard to catagorize or 
>confuse me with other people
>
>   never mistake the fact that i defend my right to egalitarian expression 
>and self defense
>
>   as far as the names in my mouth bit lets just say that you folks work in 
>public sectors and when your friends bring up your name or it comes up to 
>do with business or otherwise less savory discussion then i just try to set 
>the boundaries and make it clear that over extending on my part will lead 
>to this very sort of public flagellation and slag rag crap which looks alot 
>different than what people know me for which is show up and get the job 
>done fairly or in a timely manner... i have tried to drop this issue over 
>and over but there are indicators that other people sense brewing illness 
>from the past and push it forward also.... from the start it has been clear 
>that hidden agendas have proliferated and compromised the public work 
>because private worlds collide when personal agendas dont leave room for 
>apology and egofree re-evaluations
>
>   i do tell the truth and work to be cooperative even if i have emotive 
>moments...
>   learn to look forward is the best i can offer because these are not the 
>things worth passing on to the future or worth hanging the possibilities of 
>the present... your call
>
>   it is a bit sickening when each of  the latest power broker scenesters 
>marks me as either a useful tool to their ambitious ends or as specific 
>blockage to be removed or targeted for character assignation according to 
>my own weaknesses with regards to not being on the gopher roster of 
>personal manipulation... fact is i am capable and could be more capable if 
>this constant need for individuals to define their own power role as 
>separte from ones community didnt amount to jockeying for stature in some 
>heirarchy in society at large via fulfillment of timely personal agenda or 
>ambitious master plan to pay off ones own overextended debt ...
>
>   i am not interested in excluding sectors of the community in the 
>planning stages or any other stages if community radio or a community 
>centers  are to live up to the long term commitment and accountability... 
>thats why i stomach working with people who make my skin crawl quite 
>frankly
>
>   i am willing to admit when i am wrong as i always have been if that 
>indeed plays out as the reality because i never said that i had all the 
>answers so much as enough experience to provide input in a variety of 
>situations.... take it like you like aron and hallie and you can get into 
>business with jaime till the crow flys to destruction... the more 
>organizers the better in this world but quit thinking that your perception 
>is the only game in town or the most accurate one because its turned out at 
>other times that your choices lead you to some of these realities when they 
>suited your purpose
>
>   fact is that all this is more than most folks care to hear about but 
>since it needs ironing out or to be sorted into working sectors if not  
>tossed out... so be it... i dont have the luxury of dropping off and taking 
>a trip to europe or utah when the creative whim calls or undervaluing you 
>and the work you do because i am in this for the right reasons as imperfect 
>of a communicator as i might be... i wont speak for anyone but me at this 
>point when i say that you told me you sold out a long time ago and i surely 
>never wanted to believe that so much as i thought you were seeking a 
>greater understanding in being able to survive in this complicated world 
>with your partner as is
>
>   good luck with whatever you do and as i always say... be well... 
>portland calling is a great name and if your community holds strong then 
>its nothing but a benefit for all
>   this is not competition or slag fest even if you think thats how its 
>been going... i dont like having my car tampered with or seeing other 
>peoples either... thats no game so i am sorry if i have expressed true 
>feelings that such events always connect up with drama that you and hallie 
>have feelings about or are involved in... im fucking serious that none of 
>this happened at all until the big 'lets move out of lava and take the best 
>with us campaign' after we all worked like dogs... i have nothing to do 
>with that mess and want nothing from those ideas to be negative for 
>anyone... i do sympathize with you on wanting to move out but the politics 
>used on me and others in that effort rotted denmark to the core to the 
>degree of physical threat and real hate... thats not me nor will it ever 
>be... i told you i would never work with you on anything that greg martin 
>was involved in and i certainly meant it as good policy... i am trying not 
>to include hallie in my thoughts one way or
>  another as i do see quality in her and always have despite the darker 
>sides of ambition which i steared clear of early
>
>   for the record i will gladly say that i never want to believe anyone 
>would do such things as egging cars and painting on cars or breaking 
>windows and flattening tires but it was never a part of my life until the 
>past 2 years when these internal power struggles began... i saw the same 
>thing when the hex collective chopped up and smashed mac computers at the 
>other brycc site... too much bullshit and not enough intentional value... i 
>never want it to be a part of my life again and dont like to be around 
>people who, seen or unseen, associate with it or passively allow it to 
>stand..
>
>   i really hope that your not down with that either... i used to be 
>certain that you would do no such thing but now i just want to say that you 
>make your own world by your involvements... i know nothing about such 
>things and apologize to you for painting to the positive value of words... 
>i dont think 'be well' deserved the response of 'beware and fuck off' but 
>thats something i have no time for cleaning it up anymore or thinking about 
>it really... the task is at hand... organize the community for positive 
>change while we have the chance with all the resources and minds willing
>
>
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